I feel so lonely
Why do we need a partner?
Someone to hear us
Warm us up
Someone to break our hearts

Why do I need to blame my needings on someone else?

When I come here and write
It's only because it is hurting so much
And I find myself so lonely
I need to put it out anyway

I feel so selfish about my self issues
they hurt like hell
but they are nothing compared to what other people are suffering
"you are not the only one who has problems" you said
AND I KNOW IT AND I REMEMBER IT
EVERY FUCKING DAY

it cuts me like a knife
forever stucked in my chest
And I fall deeper and deeper
into this sorrow
And I lock my heart and soul

And no matter what I do
I just can't express all the darkness I have deep in my soul
guess I was supposed to forget it
but something evil lives inside me
And maybe it will be my dying poison